hafizsanesia

out of sudden, last friday afternoon, gyu seung invited us to see the luminarie festival that’s being held in the expo park, daejeon.  since I didn’t have anything to do that last work day of 2006, so I agreed to go with him.

I’ve heard about this festival whenever I went to expo park area to attend the friday sermon held at kaist.  regarding my knowledge, luminarie should have relation with lights (as with the word ‘illumination’ - like what one of my friend wrote in her farewell sms ).  and the fact that the festival is held from 05.00pm to 10.30pm every day is another proof that the festival would be dealing with lights.

we went there around 8pm, and the festival had just been started by showing beautiful fireworks.  the fireworks then was followed by the lighting of all the small and colorful lamps all around the festival area. and it was indeed very beautiful.  however, one thing that made me uncomfortable was the freezing temperature, especially when we watched all the beautiful lights in an open area.  so it was a usual sight to see couples hugging tightly to each other to gather some warm..

then we ‘climbed’ the expo park’s tower of light to get another cityscape view of the festival and daejeon city.  there were several attractions at the hall on the top of the tower, even the scenery when we boarded the elevator up and down was also interesting to see.

we continued the sightseeing by watching a puppet performance by czech artist, pavel angeli which was titled "swinging marrionette’.  he was a skillful puppeter and after the show, we even took pictures with him and his puppets.

we though the festival was over after the puppet show.  but in fact, another live performance (that consisted of dancing and singing) was started to begin at the festival’s open stage.  so the people who still there then gathered  in two fire camps at the both side of the stage.  then the live performance begun.

it was a freezing night, even I that wore four layered clothes still felt cold standing near a fire camp.  but the performers, especially the females seemed very strong by dancing and singing wearing a summer-like costumes.   one singer performed wearing a thin jacket and hot pants, while her accompanying all female dancers even wore tank-tops.  the costumes even got skimpier when they changed into school girls uniform-like costumes..

however, the final act was even ‘miraculous’ since the latin dancers who performed brazilian  dances, showed on the stage in bikinis..  what a very strong women and one male!

if you are curious about the festival, just visit the photos, here.

after a long postponed due to many things that happened in the past few weeks -including the gamgi attack, school works’ deadline, travelling sanasini time, and a ‘waiting for godot’ kind of feeling- so here it is.. 

it’s about the first snow scene in daejeon, winter related things and the gamgi attack - which thankfully followed by another good even for me

just drop some visit here, and thanks for dropping by..

last saturday, december 23rd, we had an invitation for a x-mas dinner party at our professor’s apartment in ichon, seoul.  my friend, gyu seung, said that the professor always held this dinner to celebrate the animation students who would be graduated february the next year.

when talking with onit and said that we would like to visit the kyobo
book store at gwanghwamun, she also wanted to go and even would take us
to another book store (actually we’d like to visit a book store that
has foreign books - since there is none in daejeon).  so we aggreed to
meet each other around 12 o’clock in seoul station.

since it was near x-mas, and marked by a long weekend, no wonder all the transportation between seoul and other cities were full.  I tried to reserve the train tickets from thursday, but only managed to get the very early morning train (that departed from daejeon at 06.05 am) and very late night train (the last semaul train to daejeon, 10.20pm). 

it is winter, so at 06.00 am, it seemed like it’s still around 04.00 am.  no wonder why that train ticket were still available, hihi..  it was too early.   however, we took the train and arrived at seoul around 08.20 am, and waited there until it was time for the stores’ operating hour.

thankfully when we arrived at kyobo, the store had opened for the early riser.  we browsed around until we met onit that showed up around 11 am.  and not long after that, we then met amy, another indonesian student from sogang univ in seoul.  so the four of us continued the ‘book store’ expedition to jonggak, to visit  ‘youngpoong book store’ there, and had lunched at jonggak’s mcdonald.

the youngpoong book store is quite big and it has many books and funny accesories - enough to make me drool, hihi.  at the basement area, there were cute stationery in the form of odd-shaped pencils.  looking to that pencils, I just remembered my professor, pak pri, back home.  he liked to go around and collect odd stuffs.

the trip then continued in walking around seoul, from jonggak to insadong, while talking about many things.  may be the good things when we are at the foreign land, it seemed that we got close easily (or may be since we had the same interest, hihi.  both me and onit liked to travel around and took photos during that travelling sanasini, and I guess beny and amy also the same.  if not, why bother going to this land of million’s lee..).

we parted at angguk station, since it was nearly 4 pm, and we (me and beny) had another appointment with gyu seung to visit some figure and modelling store at ide, then went to the main event, the christmas dinner party.

the party itself was fun, and may be because of the two of us, my professor served barbaqued chicken as the main dishes - although there is still pork served on the table.  but since we had to leave for seoul station to catch the 10.20pm train, so we excused ourselves, and left the party around 09.30pm - just before the fun game begun..

and for me the actual fun was when I gave each of the would be graduated students a drawing of each of them, in a minipato style characters, each attached to a colored pencil.  it took me 3 hours of works in the morning earlier (I woke up around 02.10am that morning to draw around 14 characters manually), and seeing their ‘gleaming’ reaction when receiving that simple gifts  made the ‘hard work’ paid off 

Love & Life

This story tells us something about LOVE & LIFE.

My husband is S/W Engineer by profession, I love him for his steady nature and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders.

Two years of courtship and now, five years into marriage, I would have to admit, that I am getting tired of it. The reasons of me loving him before, has now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness.

I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a relationship and my feelings. I yearn for the romantic moments, like a little girl yearning for candy. My husband is my complete opposite; his lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has disheartened me about LOVE.

One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted a divorce.

"Why?" he asked, shocked.

"I am tired. There are no reasons for everything in the world!" I answered.

He kept silent the whole night, seemingly in deep thought, with a lighted cigarette at all times. My feeling of disappointment only increased. Here was a man who was not able to even express his predicament, so what else could I expect from him?

And finally he asked me: "What can I do to change your mind?"

Somebody said it right… It’s hard to change a person’s personality, and I guess, I have started losing faith in him.

Looking deep into his eyes I slowly answered: "Here is the question. If you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my mind.  Let’s say, I want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff, and we both are sure that picking the flower will cause your death. Will you do it for me?"

He said: "I will give you your answer tomorrow…."

My hopes just sank by listening to his response.

I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece of paper with his scratchy handwriting underneath a milk glass, on the dining table near the front door, that goes….

My dear, "I would not pick that flower for you, but….please allow me to explain the reasons further…..

This first line was already breaking my heart. I continued reading.

"When you use the computer you always mess up the Software programs, and you cry in front of the screen. I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the programs.

Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you more than I do… I could not pick that flower yet, and die … "

My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting… and as I continue on reading…

"Now, that you have finished reading my answer, and if you are satisfied, please open the front door for I am standing outside bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk…"

I rushed to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, clutching tightly with his hands, the milk bottle and loaf of bread….Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does, and I have decided to leave the flower alone…

That’s LIFE, and LOVE. When one is surrounded by love, the feeling of excitement fades away, and one tends to ignore the true love that lies in between the peace and dullness.

Love shows up in all forms; even in very small and cheeky forms. It has never been a model. It could be the dullest and most boring form …

Flowers, and romantic moments are only used and appear on the surface of the relationship. Under all this, the pillar of true love stands…

AND THAT’S OUR LIFE

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simple yet touching story posted on the perpika mailing list around this week.  and it reminded me again for not looking only by recently ’strange’ actions, but to look deeper than that since human heart is difficult to fathom..

and may be, someday, somehow, all the things you faced in your life (as for me, it’s all about human relationship) would help us to be a better person.

I hear a voice in my mind
I know her face by heart
heaven and earth
are moving in my soul
I don’t know where to start

tell me, tell me, the
words to define
the way I feel about someone so fine

how do you talk to an
angel
how do you hold her close to where you are
how do you talk to an
angel
it’s like trying to catch a falling star

at night I dream that she
is there
and I can feel her in the air

tell me, tell me, the words to
define
the way I feel about someone so fine

how do you talk to an
angel
how do you hold her close to where you are
how do you talk to an
angel
it’s like trying to catch a falling star

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one lovely song, especially for angel-like friend you ever had in your life..

so merry x-mas to you, wish U could be an everlasting angel for the people around you 

amen..

as I said in the previous post earlier about the heavy snow in daejeon, so I’ve just posted the pics from the beautiful scenery (at least for me, hihi..  it gave me an extraordinary feeling, to see everything around you in white..), here.   

at the beginning of this week, I also managed to finish one animation project for the compositing animation class.  although it is quite rush work -since I made the majority of works in animating, compositing and editing in less than one week- but it’s kinda nice, hihi..  for the several backgrounds, 3D models and screen shots images, just see them in here, while the animation itself - titled ‘intersection’ since the story is about a usual scene found in the city road intersection, in wmv format- could be watched (or downloaded) from here.

just drop some visit and enjoy the pics!

(1..2…1,2,3,4)
Shed a tear ’cause I’m missing you
I’m still alright to smile
Girl, I think about you every day now
Was a time when I wasn’t sure
But you set my mind at ease
There is no doubt you’re in my heart now
Said woman take it slow
It’ll work itself out fine
All we need is just a little patience
Said sugar make it slow
And we’ll come together fine
All we need is just a little patience
Patience…
Ooh, oh, yeah

Sit here on the stairs
‘Cause I’d rather be alone
If I can’t have you right now, I’ll wait dear
Sometimes, I get so tense
But I can’t speed up the time
But you know, love, there’s one more thing to consider
Said woman take it slow
Things will be just fine
You and I’ll just use a little patience
Said sugar take the time
‘Cause the lights are shining bright
You and I’ve got what it takes to make it
We won’t fake it, Oh never break it
‘Cause I can’t take it

…little patience, mm yeah, ooh yeah,
Need a little patience, yeah
Just a little patience, yeah
Some more patience… (yeah)
I’ve been walking these streets at night
Just trying to get it right (Need some patience, yeah)
It’s hard to see with so many around
You know I don’t like being stuck in a crowd (Could use some patience, yeah)
And the streets don’t change but maybe the name
I ain’t got time for the game
‘Cause I need you (Patience, yeah)
Yeah, yeah well I need you
Oh, I need you (Take some patience)
Whoa, I need you (Just a little patience is all we need)
Ooh, this time….

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another memorable song from guns n’ roses that kept me company during my last 48 hours, finishing the latest animation work. 

I guess the beautiful white snow made me a bit of mellow these days..

characteristic of october baby (that’s me :p ), found from my friend’s page…  is it a good representation of me?  let’s see then..

Loves to chat.
-> yup, especially if they chat back.  is not nice to talk to the wall.. :p
Loves those who love them.
-> uhm.. I love all the people whom I love and care about
Loves to takes things at the
center.
-> to be precise, loves to put things back in order..
Inner and physical beauty.
-> nah..  I’m the one who can said these things about myself.. :p
Lies but doesn’t pretend.
-> better to be honest, then hihi.. since if I lie, people would notice that..
Gets angry
often.
-> an ‘inner’ angry to be precise.  I don’t like showing off my anger..
Treats friends importantly.
-> I do care about my friends, especially the ones in the special category
Brave and fearless.
-> am I..?  I am not a brave kid back then in my childhood days..
Always making
friends.
-> I have to, now I am in the land of million’s lee!
Easily hurt but recovers easily.
-> sometimes it’s true, sometimes it’s not..  sometimes to recover, I made another stupid acts :p
Daydreamer.
-> ha ha..  if I’m not, then I won’t be here now..
Opinionated.
-> too much talking person..? if someone comes and ask for suggestions, it’s a nice thing to give yours.. 
Does
not care to control emotions.
-> so that’s why I am easily distracted..?
Unpredictable.
-> I guess so..  many of my friends always surprised the way I act, since they said that I’m not appear to do so..  sorry.. :p
Extremely smart, but
definitely the >>hottest AND sexiest of them all
-> am I..?

been attacked by a heavy gamgi (korean word for cold) during the beginning of the winter season and heavy workload, that whether forced me to lie in bed during weekends or working untill almost midnite at school during weekdays..  and had to abandoned the journal and photo posts for sometime.  sorry for that..

and after a month full of very heavy coughing during the night, a frequent nose-bleed whenever I ‘met’ the unusually cold water and a 8(am)-11(pm) schedules that sometimes took away my smiling face, finally I got accustomed to the cold temperature and now feel better.  just hope it could stay long enough, because the ‘actual’ winter will reach its coldest time in january..

but during that hard times, not everything went bad..  we had the second snow this winter -and it was quite long although not long enough to cover everything in white-, and despite the cold, we even played with the snow (that caused me another bed rest the day after :p ).  then a surprise phone call from kofu, emails and photos from bandung (thanks d, for sending me that great disney lantern festival photos..), YM pop ups and nice chatting time and several dinner invitations that served good and delicious food.

I’ll try to get back on my usual rhytm after monday deadline, then..

-> another unfocus post.. :p  gee, I had to get another grip soon enough!