hafizsanesia

it’d been a hectic, stressful days due to the preparation to go to korea at the end of february. so to get a little relief, I looked around and found  that there were many kawaii things around me

two days ago, it was finally here..

I’d been expecting these documents from woosong university, korea and thanks God, finally, it’s here

this is very important, because it means that I (with bebebebeben) had officially been accepted at the university to pursue further study in animation that would start just this march. now, it’s time to prepare the documents and permit from my school to get student visa from the korean embassy.  hope everything would turns out just fine.. amin!

korea, I’m coming!

and thanks to God for that, and for someone who always supporting me and wish everything would go well for me to go to korea. thank you, yah

(I’ll tell the complete ‘behind of’ stories later on. got to attend a morning meeting a few minutes again!)

Today is your Special Day
I don’t know why, but I feel very happy
Today is the day you were born
So I guess today is special from the other
If there is someone or even no one
Together looking through candles
May I give you a present?
To tell straight from the heart

"Omedetou"
Happy happy birthday
Wish you happiness in your life
Happy happy birthday
I hope that there is always smile on your face

Mayo Okamoto - Happy Happy Birthday

actually, it was kinda late, because both vera and tintin’s (yes, THAT famous tintin with his companion, snowy) b’day was on january 10, three days ago.. and it also funny, because I just realized a year ago that these two people that I admire a lot, both have the same b’day although one was ‘born’ fifty years earlier..

happy happy b’day, vera..  happy b’day tintin..

thanks for inspiring me through all these times and will still continue for many years to come :-)  wish all of you happiness, luck and success in life. amen

however, the pict I choose for this part is really ‘unrelated’. I pick it because b’day is usually a happy and bright occassion and I thought these kawaii & yummy candies would give the same impression too, he he.. 

after juni passed away last week, then two days ago another one followed..

juni’s sister, gendut, had kittens that she kept in a hidden place, behind the kitchen. For a while, everything was ok untill gendut got sick and she failed to feed her babies. The kitten(s) started to ‘cry’ and my auntie decided to take the kitten so we could feed it if the mother failed to do so..

again, it was ok at first. we managed to find the baby (just one left alive) and put it in a box. he began to drink milk and even started to eat things, so I felt relief because it was easier for us to feed him. 

but, then things began to grow wrong.. I thought that somehow, the baby also got sick because he stop eating and drinking milk we gave him. even when his mother (which started to get healthy) was around, he didn’t get up to feed himself by looking for his mother’s milk. he began to get weaker and weaker..

finally, on the idul adha day, he passed away right when I was holding him in my hands..

bye bye baby kitten, hope you’ll find peace in the after life.. ToT

a mourning is in the past, and live goes on..

so, this is a little relief from yesterday. the day before, I create this neko papercraft that I downloaded from canon website. it was a kind of cute, that I couldn’t resist to create this neko asap and took only a nite to create him.

the funny things is when the remaining cats played with it, it’s rather to differentiate between both of them :p

aren’t they all look the same? ha ha ha ha..

it’s the new year day, and I’d just lost one of my beloved cats..

the first time I noticed that juni (his name actually was bobong junior because he resembled his mother, billabong bobong but then we shortened into just juni from the word junior..) when he began to throw up in the morning.  then he went away and I couldn’t find him for the whole afternoon..

then, when I went to started the auntie’s car engine, I heard the familiar howling: it was juni’s cry for help from under the car.. I rushed to help him, but I guessed it’d been too late. juni was dying, his body streched out and he was only able to mumble..

I knew that nothing else I could do to save juni’s life.. the only thing that I could do was at least I was there, accompanied him until the last. so, I sat beside him, cuddled him softly. I didn’t know wether that would ease his pain, but at least I wanted him to know that he was being loved and cared ’till the end.

slowly, he began to calm down and became quiet.. his body went colder and colder..

then juni was gone and the angel took him to heaven ( I guess so, because I only knew the legend about all dogs went to heaven, but I didn’t know wether that would apply also to cats..). 

juni only lived around nine and a half months. but he meant a lot to me, because I knew him from the time he was born untill now, spent the time together and he used to go and sleep in my lap whenever I worked..

bye bye, juni..

hope you find a peaceful live somewhere in heaven..

amen..