hafizsanesia

the year 2005 still has another day (today is december 30), but this is the last work day in 2005, because saturday is not a work day and I plan to spend that day working and drawing the illustrations for the upcoming martabak dua (the deadline is january 9!) in my home. but still, next year I’ll still sitting on this desk, doing the usual work before my departure to korea..

this day also marks my last day as dkv’s secretary since july 2001. from january 2006, the new head of dkv will be in the hand of kang dody achmad. well, I guess I’ve to get used to became ordinary staff after 4 1/2  year as secretary of program.  hey, I’m NOT into the post power syndrome.  actually, I’m happy in becoming ordinary staff again, because the duty as secretary requires me to do things that not really my interest (I don’t like meeting, writing report, counting the monthly expenses, etc). and to be honest, it is the hardest way when you’re in charge in managing all the people who is also your teachers and seniors..

the one that will change in the appearance of my work desk is the pc that I usually used.  because I’m no longer on duty, so the pc will be moved to kang dody’s quarter this afternoon.  it’s the ‘on duty’ pc (I’ve found no perfect english word for ‘dinas’, yet..) as secretary of program, he he..  guess, I’ll spend the whole day backing up my data, so kang dody would use a ‘fresh’ pc to begin his new duty with.

thank you for all of you who’d supported my works as dkv’s secretary.  sorry for any inconvience during our ‘regime’ ( ;P ) and also wish U all the happiest new year!

Oh why, are the tears coming out like this?

If I could, if I could just say it out a little better…
Hey… Whaddya think we should do?

Slackers and losers all,
The sun’s laughing out loud at us.
"This great summer’s slipping away from you!"

Don’t mind  Those tears, wipe them away
Stand up for your life!
There’s no one who can take your place!

Wanting to do it, and being unable to do it
Some how, that got old fast
Acting tough, and being full of fire,
And wanting to do absolutely nothing at all.
hey… whaddya think we should do?

Blaming it all on others  Getting so mad over stuff
Slackers and losers all  "You kids should just get lost!"

Hey guys Throw away your pride
Go to your next stage!
Be more than what you are
Change the World!

Slackers and losers all, the sun’s laughing out loud at us
"This wonderful time’s slipping away from you!"

Don’t mind  those tears, wipe them away
Stand up for your life!
There’s no one who can take your place!
now, Change the World!
Do the best of you!

You, and me, we all just hadn’t noticed
Even if it’s raining, even if it’s not OK,
Today’s gonna be a fine day!
You, and me, we all just hadn’t noticed
Even if it’s raining, even if it’s not OK,
Today’s gonna be a fine day!

another energic song from Do As Infinity that I recently I heard again-again (well, it seems that now I got the habbit of listening one song repeatedly, just like somebody I knew.. damn you sponbob! :p) and the video clip of this also shows tomiko at the stage, singing and rehearsing  during one of the DAI outdoor concert.  kawaiinaaa.. ToT

may be because I have to be energic recently. come on, martabak dua’s deadline is coming nearer!
so, stand up and do the best of you!

but most importantly, DAIsuki and Van Tomiko sukisuki, ha ha ha..

guess I’m the v lover.. D

We are
Born upon these thousands of stars
Ah, the miracle that was
Me meeting you

A dream I had from so long ago continues
I’d believed in it all when I was a child
Once again, I’d like to see you
Never again, will I be able to see you

On that freezing night I made a promise
and wished upon a shooting star
We are
Born upon these thousands of stars
Ah, the miracle that was
Me meeting you
Belongs to just the two of us

Awaken from your slumber
And even if you find that all is naught but illusion
The love we have will keep on living in our hearts
Somehow, someway, if only I could tell you that
if only I could say that to you once again

And what town is the star of wishes watching over now, I wonder?
Even tonight, it goes about its business, silently
In the midst of this ever-repeating history,
the gift that it bestowed upon us,
our meeting of chance,
remains my most treasured possesion

Somewhere in the corner of this spinning planet
Someone lies waiting for you, even now

Try and remember
Look upon your heart,
and paint the dream we’ve begun to forget
I met you upon this world
On that holy night when you came for me
Things have remained as they are
Since the day I made that promise
Since the day I wished upon a shooting star

We are
Born upon these thousands of stars
Ah, the miracle that was
Me meeting you
Belongs to us both

We need the holy light,
waiting for the silent night
We need the holy light,
waiting for the silent night

I’ve heard this song by Do As Infinity, again and again and when I saw their video clip, I just realized that this was actually a christmas song :-)  no wonder why the last refrain mentioned the holy light and silent night phrases..

regarding christmas and any other big religious days, we used to celebrate them among family, that always gathered and came from everywhere to spent the days together.  even in the "mickey’s christmas carol", bob crachit (who’s played by mickey mouse) made the remark, "christmas is time for giving, time with one’s family.."

so, I was moved when I noticed that some of my friends would spent their christmas far from their family.. one of them mentioned that she would spend the day finishing her december works in the printer company while some other put the status "blue christmas" (as opposed to the usual white christmas, and if I’m not mistaken, blue means sad things..) on the YM.

so, it was a happy news during the christmas eve that I got a midnite reply telling that one of my friend actually managed to celebrate christmas with her family (although she mentioned later on that actually she got no holiday and would go to work the following day after christmas).  is it a christmas eve miracle? :-)  however, I’m happy for her 

thanks to God for taking good care of my friends..

and if all things when smoothly, then next year I’ll be the one who’ll celebrate my big religious days (the idul fitr and idul adha) far far away from my family..

none the less, I thank to God that I finally fullfilled my long awaited dreams.

may be because I’ve been and still pak pri’s assistant, that I also started to collect things that interest me.

and these are my starbucks related memorial, from the cups, candy wrappings, brochures and bottles.  they are still not too many, because I don’t go to star bucks that often, it’s just too costly for my own pockey money.. :p

nah.. I’m not complaining, just another busy week days and short but enjoyable week end in the middle.
it’s the end of the year and as usual, time to write down annual report (cause I’m the program secretary and it is secretary’s job to made the report: both academic and finance).  the last two weeks was full of writing, typing and counting letters and numbers.  a kind of hectic, and I needed some time to relax and took my mind away for a while..
so, last saturday I decided to watch the chronicles of narnia movie @ ciwalk and ask the dkv crews to join me.  Five names showed up: alva and his wivvy2, sponbob, sarey and her faithful companion: mirna.
the movie was great and I enjoyed it much (might be because I really need some entertainment badly, ha ha..).  there were scenes that made me wanna ‘cry’, especially when king hary faced the queen’s army in the final battle to defend narnia, and he knew that his army was out numbered.  But he fought bravely and that decision gave bumps in my neck..
the entertainment went on with the bos alva’s offer to treat all of us a cup of starbucks coffe for each one of us (and only a cup of coffe, and we’d pay on our own if we’d like to have additional beverages. hey, starbucks is costly, he he he..).   
we took the seat near the main window next to the ciwalk’s main entrance and would easily observe the people who went in and out ciwalk. sponbob took the best seat, facing the main entrance and took a pleasure in seeing many female visitor that wore the ‘usual’ sexy outfit: tank top and mini skirt (and I took the opposite seat: facing sponbob :p ). even at the plaza, there were ratu wanna be’s singing contest: and the contestants wore that ’sexy&bitchy’ ratu outfit.. so, I guessed sponbob just found one of the best day of his life
however it makes me wonder that sometimes the fashion mode is winning all the way. the weather that night was cold and rainy but it seemed that it didn’t bother many female visitors to appear sexy (and I believed they felt cold wearing that kind of outfit).  gee, I guess appearance is the most important thing in this world, right?

but one of the happiest time was when I officially freed from my duty as secretary starting next year that just one week away.  dody would took my and kang irfan’s place as the head of dkv’s program.  so, now I’m a free man

korea, I’m coming!

I’m not looking for someone to talk to

I’ve got my friend, I’m more than O.K.

I’ve got more than a girl could wish for
I live my dreams but it’s not all they say

Still I believe I’m missing something real

I need someone who really sees me…

Don’t wanna wake up alone anymore

Still believing you’ll walk through my door

All I need is to know it’s for sure

Then I’ll give… all the love in the world

I’ve often wondered if love’s an illusion

Just to get you through the loneliest days

I can’t criticize it
I have no hesitation

My imagination just stole me away

Still I believe
I’m missing something real

I need someone who really sees me…

Don’t wanna wake up alone anymore

Still believing you’ll walk through my door

All I need is to know it’s for sure

Then I’ll give… all the love in the world

Love’s for a lifetime not for a moment

So how could I throw it away

Yeah I’m only human

And nights grow colder

With no-one to love me that way

Yeah I need someone who really sees me…

And I won’t wake up alone anymore

Still believing you’ll walk through my door

You’ll reach for me and I’ll know it’s for sure

Then I’ll give all the love in the world

a song by the corrs that I used to love and recently fell in love again.  and the best thing about this song is whenever I listen to (and sometimes sing a long  loudly with it) while thinking about someone special, then it gives me the warmest feeling in my heart.. :-) 

this totoro was found accidentally last saturday, while me, bos alva and his wivy2 took a detour in istana plaza.  because of the rain when we parked the outside, nday had to run that broken her cellphone strap.  so, she decided to find a replacement and while doing so, alva (with his eyes of trade -watchfull for anything that smells money :p ) saw this totoro hanging around and showed it to me, the totoro lover.

enable to resist the temptation, I made the quickest decision ever: bought this totoro although I was not sure when I would put my cellphone in it.  I used the siemens m65, and it would look funny when I put that ‘macho’ thing inside a cute holder, he he..

however, I tried to do that yesterday, but then gave up after half of the day. so, I kept that kawaii cellphone holder as a collectible item.  may be someday I’ll give to someone, cause the totoro will be a perfect present for someone..

this colourful cookies I found last friday @ hero near mbak aan’s house @ jalan lombok, remind me a lot about the cookies I ate when I was little.  so, I bought two small bags and brought them the next monday to the dkv.

well, it seemed that every body who saw it immediately thought just what I did.  even mbak anti, who’s in australia right now, felt the same way.  by telling so, they did not stop eating and taking these cookies into theit mouth.

no wonder, that the cookies were ’sold out’ in a very short time.. :p 

another book about chinese philosophies, proverbs and this time told through the china’s long and well documented history.

actually, this book was ms. yen mah’s fourth book after ‘watching the tree’ that I’d mentioned earlier. but, this was my first encounter with ms. yen mah’s book and the one that started it all: my curiosity about chinese proverb and philosophies and how the chinese somehow managed to relate their own live with their countries’  history.

one thing that amazed me is that the long history of china’s origin: from the yellow emperor, the warring states periode, era of the first emperor, the famous three kingdoms era- is well documented and many important events were recorded in the form of proverbs.  These proverbs also managed to be part of every chinese’s daily life and related what they faced in their live to these old and ancient sayings.  Many proverb were recorded even several centuries bc.  What an amazing people!

in this book, ms. yen mah told china’s long and comprehensive history through proverbs, and the proverbs theirselves also acted as chapters.  ms. yen mah even related some of the events and proverbs to the story of her own family, just like a famous saying, ‘history is repeating itself’.

however, after reading this book again and again,  me myself felt that some of the stories and proverbs told in this book also happened in my own life.  gu zhang nang ming (clapping with one hand produce no sounds), le ji sheng bei (excessive happiness will lead to sorrow), qian shi bu wang, hou shi zhi shi (use incidents from the past as lesson-guides for the future), yan que yong you hong hu zhi (little sparrow with dreams of swans) are such proverb that I can used to described parts of my life and may be other people’s life as well.

and one proverb might be essentials in the youth of Indonesia: Handan xue bu, a person who loses hir original self by slavishly imitating others..

may be I am one of them , too.. 

because right now, I think I have more knowledge about another country than about my own beloved country..

Handan xue bu

yesterday was a very hectic day.. we got the assesorsfrom BAN who audited the school regarding what we had written on the borang several months ago. so, started early in the morning, almost all dkv-ers were ready and prepared to meet the assesors, answering all of their questions.

thankfully the audit was over at noon, but another guest was coming: ms. retno from elexmedia who became the guest lecturer in the comic class. so, another hit and run because the bos was also wira wiri, preparing the jazz concert at the following night.  the comic session with ms. retno ran smoothly, and she also met the trio: diana-anggia-putri, whose works had been seen by ms. retno a week ago in jakarta and suddenly liked them very much.

thank God everything was fine, and after that, I really wanted a hot bath in the tub :p 

too bad, I didn’t have one at home, he he..